BITERHAMEN !

Setiap tetes air mataku
Telah kuberikan untuk kisahku
Mengerti tapi tak dimengerti
Cintaku tlah di ujung jalan

Setiap kata dari bibirku
Kadang tak sama dalam hatiku
Tersenyum, dalam hati menangis
Cintaku tlah di ujung jalan

Aku sangat mengenalmu
Aku juga cintaimu
Tapi kau tak pernah ada pengertian
Ku senang, ku sedih
Kau tak mau tahu
Aku sangat mengenalmu
Dulu kau tak begitu
Ku senang, ku sedih
Kau ada denganku

Ku mengerti kau apa adanya
Begitu pun yang kumau darimu
Kau tahu rasanya diabaikan
Cintaku tlah di ujung jalan. . .

Mungkin itu lirik lagu yang pas buat perasaan aku selain RAPUH sama TANYA HATI. Aku emang munafik sama perasaan aku sendiri. Ternyata aku ngga sekuat itu.

Emang, aku masih sayang dia. I've been looking for him since the day I heard my first fairytale. He's better than the boy of my dreams, he's real ! He gives me the kind of feeling people write novels about. Lebay sih kedengarannya tapi emang itu kenyataannya. Munafik banget lah kalo aku udah ga sayang dia. Ga segampang itu lah aku ngelupain orang yang udah sempat bikin aku seneng, ketawa ketawa sendiri, yang selalu bikin aku semangat buat ngehadapin semuanya. Lagian kan, don't regret something that once made you smile. Sayangnya, sekarang ga ada lagi kata kata dari dia yang selalu bikin aku senyum. Emang, if you love someone, and they break your heart, don't give up on love ; have faith, restart. Tapi gimana bisa ngerestart kalo keadaannya tetep gini? Andai aja dia tau aku sesayang ini dan bisa ngerti semuanya. And if he could be in my life like he've been on my mind, my life could be sooo easy. Kenyataannya sekarang berbanding terbalik, aku dihadapkan dengan satu kenyataan that love is much like a wild rose, beautiful and calm but willing to draw blood in it's defense.

I never wanted the stars, never shot for the moon. I like them right were they are.. All I ever want was him. Hey you, I miss your sound. I miss your hug. I even miss the arguments that we would have from time to time. I miss you standing by my side. I'm dying here it's clear to see.. There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me. Don't wanna live, I wanna die if I can't have you in my life.

But, we must understand that love leaves for a reason but never without a lesson. Because, loves is silent but louder than anything in this world. And miracles usually will come in the most unexpected time. As long as we put our faith in it. I just wish I have eyes at the back of my head, so I can see his face when I walked away. Now, let our bodies intertwine, but always understand that everything, everything ends.

I may have failed but I have loved him from the start. If we're meant to be, then we'll certainly be together again. And every night, I'd pray for the same thing : never to lose HIM. . .